i have been waiting a while now. i knew the answer. i think i just didnt want to believe it. but there is no doubting the answer that the Lord gave me yesterday. clear as crystal.
of all days too.
but i am thankful. and i am rejoicing. it isnt easy to accept, but im excited for this new step forward. to put my trust completely in the Lord.
God is good. He works in the most amazing ways. Im excited for what he is doing in my life.
sh*tuff christian girls say.
so funny. so true. love this.
the Anthem - planetshakers
Hallelujah
You have won the victory
Hallelujah
You have won it all for me
Death could not hold you down
You are the risen king
Seated in majesty
You are the risen king
amen.
(Source: freedomreigns)
please excuse my mild obsession with pandas for now. HOW CUTE IS TIS. he just ROLLS. like a ball. teehee SO CUTE.
(Source: mmojdeh, via itskristielam)
1) why is it that when my cell phone is on low battery, my cell phone does MORE to indicate that it is running on low battery. IF MY PHONE IS LOW ON BATTERY, CONSERVE MY BATTERY. shutup, stop beeping, stop lighting up, you are WASTING MY BATTERY. this is what i do not get about phones.
2) police during rush hour. there is a traffic jam. why is there a traffic jam? because POLICE ARE BUSY GIVING OUT TICKETS on two lane roads. umm excuse police men, but people have to be places. CANT YOU LET THIS ONE GO? just because you have all this power does not mean you have flaunt it. i hate when i am stuck in a traffic jam, only to realize that one car is being ticketed by a police officer. BAH. police man, this is YOUR FAULT.
SHELLY!
<3. big bang theory.
… also i hope that is not what i look like when i smile.
i have some amazing friends. this is something that i want to remember.
at congee dynasty: january 18th 2012
sg: when you guys get girlfriends, im out of here, im keeping my distance. Actually scratch that, i am going to be best friends with your girlfriends, and then i am going to be the maid of honor at your wedding.
jc: what do you mean you are going to keep your distance. thats not fair to us! you can’t just walk away! what about what we want!
mq: sandra, no matter how close you get with my girlfriend you are never going to have with her, what we have right here.
sg: huh?
mq: like what we have is different. you have a special place in my heart. completely different than anyone else. like not bro’s, but we just have a special relationship
jc. so shes not quite a bro, but slightly more than a normal friend. like that.
mq; not even that. its just different, i cant even begin to describe it. this relationship has a special place in my heart. sandra you get it dont you?
sg: like how we can have a whole conversation without saying any words.
mq: yeah like that.
sg: jc, dont worry, soon we will have that too.
BAH. i smile just thinking of it. I LOVE MY FRIENDS <3.
1) when looking at our bald professor:
liz: sandra, when i look at our professor, i cant help but think that all of the hair on his arms should be on his head instead.
2) making groups for case study presentations:
Sarah: lets be team mathematics! since we all have math as teachables except LIZ (who is going to teach french)
LIZ: we are going to be l’EQUIPE MATHEMATIQUES.
i laughed so hard when she said that.
3) daniella cleaning up our mess on the table.
lauren: daniella why do you always need to clean up
daniella: l always want things clean, so im going to throw out all the garbage. Come on Sandra, let’s go
Sandra: -________-
(in case you didnt get that, she was implying that i was garbage)
4) MARTIN has a HAT/SCARF. its a HAT at the end of the SCARF. so basically you put ON the hat. and then you WRAP the scarf around. its ALL CONNECTED.
mind blown.
so this post is going to sound really weird to alot of you, especially since just a couple of days ago i sounded like a love struck school girl.
I have often been praying that I will trust completely in God. That God will give me the strength to get over this feeling, and to completely trust that my future is in His hands. I have had this feeling for this certain boy before. But year after year i have gotten over it quickly. This year, it seemed to take months. BUT i think im finally there. Im over it. Im over him.
crazy eh. i seemed to like him alot just days ago, hours ago even. and yet today when i spent more time with him i found that i was over it. i AM over it. somehow by spending more time with him, God used the strengths of our relationship to help me overcome.
We troll each other, we make fun of each other, we talk about the future, and yet i have always been myself. i have never pretended to be anyone else, and i realize how comfortable i am around you. we joke about future husbands and wives, we talk about having our own children, and about me marrying a fine black man. And yet i realized that today, i was enjoying the conversation. i wasnt lying, or pretending to feel something that i wasnt. i wasnt being cautious and i wasnt looking for a reaction from you.
we are the perfect pair of friends. we get along well, you read me like no other, we have jokes where words are not necessary, and we are pretty low maintenance. it hit me like a ton of bricks today that IM OVER IT! i dont know how to describe it. kinda like the time i realized when i had completely forgiven Mike- no hatred, no anger, nothing. When i think about you now, i feel content, pleased, burden free. i dont want anything more, and i dont expect anything.
Yesterday i would have wished that you would have found my blog, read it, and find out. but today, i thought about it, and i realized that if you ever found out, i would be devastated, because that would mean something would change between the two of us, and that would break my heart.
would i be okay with you dating someone? i want to say 100% yes, but for now it would only be 70%. i would miss spending time with you, since you would probably be busy pursuing this relationship of yours, plus i wouldnt want to be that “close friend who is a girl”. i think that is dangerous territory. But i would be glad for you, i would be happy that God has found someone to put in your life, and that he has given you the confidence and strength to pursue her.
i write this with a smile on my face. IM OVER IT! for now at least. perhaps God will change my heart, and perhaps yours later on. Perhaps God has more planned for us together than we can ever comprehend, or maybe not. But I can see my kids playing with yours, my husband chatting it up with you, and your wife and i being the best of friends. i am very content with that idea, and im look forward to that day. i am confident that His will and His plan for me is perfect. For right now, you are my brother in Christ, and thats all i want of you. The Lord has finally given me the strength and the opportunity to move on and once again He has reminded me to pursue nothing except the relationship that i have with Jesus Christ.
im a fan of everything here in this colour. except the hair.
(Source: ohsopictures, via withscienceandfaith)
where is the line that you arent allowed to cross between male and female friendships. when guys and girls become best friends, eventually one or the other develops feelings for the other. Yes guys and girls are allowed to be friends. treat older women as mothers, and younger women as sisters, in all purity— 1 timothy 5:2. But then how much is too much, and how far is too far. Where do we draw the line between what we share and what we don’t share.
its easier when you are on the outside looking in. you can see feelings develop. one for the other, or vice versa. its easy to analyze a relationship when you arent apart of it. You can tell who likes who, if the feeling is mutual, and if there is something more going on. But when you are in the friendship, ill tell you reading the other person, and sometimes analyzing your own actions, is just a tangled knot, where you are unable to see the other end.
I am so much more aware now. im so much aware of physical contact, as simple as a touch. today i was aware of my words and my actions. what questions if i asked them would be too much. do i have other intentions, when i ask certain questions, or do i simply want to know. Today i found that i wanted to say so many things, but i held back. i was so much more aware of you, your looks, and your words. so much more than normal. where do i draw the line? should i start walking away now?
And yet the smallest things make me smile. like you asking if my hands were cold, or intentionally walking down the stairs simultaneously, or just you sharing so much with me. If this had been anybody else, i probably wouldnt give these things a second thought. but because they were you, everything seems heightened. multipled by 12328109.
BAH. im so glad you dont read this. i cant stand to lose you at a friend or even to stop spending time with you. and yet, i cant seem to find a way of getting over you otherwise. where do i draw the line?
you are an amazing man, who loves God and and puts Him first in your life. You are actively pursuing the heart of God, and looking to grow deeper with Him each and every day. You are biblical and you reflect Jesus Christ in your actions, thoughts and your words. You are able to lead me spiritually, closer to our Lord God.
Our relationship is founded on Jesus Christ, because His love is what binds us together. I will always love Him more than i love you, and You will love Him more than you will love me. We will continuously put Jesus Christ before anything in our relationship, and everything that we do will always glorify Him.
You love worshipping God, and together we will worship him whole heartedly. The lord has given you so many talents, and you use them to glorify Him. You are musical, with a voice of an angel and amazing skills. together you and i will worship Him and bring glory to His name through our music.
You are amazing with kids. You are patient and kind, and you see the good in everything. You love their innocence, and they are able to bring out your young side. you are childish, but in all the right ways. you love playing with toys and games, watching disney movies, and cheesy romantic comedies. You laugh at the simple things the way that i do, because we both find joy in the little things.
Our relationship will be filled with laughter and smiles, with the occasional argument. we will fight over the little things, but with laughter and joy. the playful fighting that keeps the relationship healthy. You are competitive, but not too competitive, because so am I. We like a little friendly competition. Oh, and I will always win.
You like reading, some of the same books, so that we can discuss and share. You love taking pictures, and exploring. you love the outdoors. but not the camping type, more like the lets go take a walk in the park, when the day is nice, and possibly swing on the swings.
we can sit in comfortable silence. You understand me. You know my different laughs and my different smiles. you understand the way I think, and the way i need to be reassured. you understand my priorities and my youth. You know that the little things please me, and i laugh at just about everything (you are one of these things.) you arent afraid to make an idiot out of yourself if it means that it would make me smile. you know how to make me laugh, but you know when im being serious, and when silence is really just the best answer.
You dont mind staying home, and relaxing by the television while we curl up reading, but we also like going to the zoo, bowling (even though i suck), and visiting the ROM.
But really, you dont have to have all these things. Whoever God decides to place in my life, i know that it will be part of His ultimate plan for me. and there is a reason that you are in my life. For the one thing you dont have on the list above, there will be 12382910 more reasons that i will love you.
Ultimately, we will laugh together, love together, and above all, praise and glorify Jesus Christ together.
OH. but if God calls me to a life of singleness. then i am fine with that too.
HAHA. this video is hilarious. so cute, and great editing skills by the father.
OMG! Adorbz of the Day: Dad asks his adorable baby daughter to play favourites.
[sisfti.]
